PHASE 2: ENGAGE!

Hello true believers,

I figured the five week update was well overdue, so here we go.

Over the past few days I've been killing myself with this diet. To take it a step further, there have been days over the course of this experience where I literally wanted to kill myself. Take last night for example:

It is common practice for any high school sport team on the road to stop for dinner at the most convenient fast food place. Last night, I sat on a bus, feeling sick because for whatever reason, I can't deal with the smell of diesel fuel, and ate a dry salad with dry tuna while my entire team (coaches included) filtered back onto the bus with bags of Wendy's, Subway, and whatever else I couldn't eat. Most of the time I just consider food to be fuel. When you convince yourself that food is meant to sustain life and not taste good, you can pretty much convince yourself to eat anything when operating in a diet vacuum.

It's only when the good stuff enters your atmosphere that you start to realize what pain you are going through. Still, even with the temptation and madness, I still find myself at the end of five weeks sitting at 217 pounds. For those of you keeping track at home, that's down 22 lbs. in five weeks. Not a bad start.

And so begins Phase 2: Becoming Superhuman

The craziest thing I've dealt with in this entire process is I have yet to do an ounce of any exercise. I think part of the reason I failed in the past was because I didn't yield any real quantitative success right off the bat when I worked out as well as dieted. And I think what always hampered any amount of success I've ever had in the weight room is that I didn't know what the hell I was doing. Working glamour muscles (ie: chest, arms, shoulders, etc) never got me much but a bit of bulk on top of a hill made out of butter and shame. And when I did have some guidance under the tutelage of John Duncan, the best I did for him was kill myself at the gym then go home and eat like shit. So I have myself to blame for that one.

yet, the time has come to put the rest of this plan into action and hopefully be under 200 lbs for the first time in ten years before June 1st. Hopefully with the core exercise and continued diet, the rest of this mess will come right off. Even if it's hard than I expect, at least I've shed "the gobbler" under my chin. Now I just need hockey season to end so I can get on a regular gym schedule.

Oh yeah, and I am going to crush some awful food this Saturday for my long weekend. I've been watching "Epic Meal Time" on YouTube all week in preparation. Let's roll.

Egg whits and protein shakes,

R Von D